Well, I had plans for today. I was going to be very industrious and get many things done...cleaning, therapy, grocery shopping, going out with ExecutiveDirector.
Sadly, all that is being derailed. Last night I felt ache-y and took my temperature. It was 99.4, which is pretty high for me. This morning I was still running about 99.0 and am ache-y and tired. No other symptoms. Maybe this is why I was feeling so tired earlier in the week.
I've been sitting and laying about this a.m. debating my plan of action for the day...I took something which should bring my fever down, and so, my strange logic went, I will feel well enough to do all the things I need to do. Ummmm....why do we do this to ourselves, I wonder?
Here I have the freedom of a relatively open day (I'm not at my dialysis job on Fridays, and I happen to have no clients today). The only obligation I really need to follow through on is pretty minor and later in the day. But I feel guilty...guilty about cancelling the therapy that I will still be paying for because I'm cancelling late. Guilty for not getting my house clean. Guilty for cancelling a social get-together (even though she's pregnant and probably shouldn't be around a sickie anyway). WTF!
So, I'm going against my feelings and listening to my body, which desperately wants rest and juice and more rest...and I'm cancelling therapy (I'll probably still take out the trash, but that's not so much guilt motivated as just the need to get rid of something gross!).
Update: The very cool side of knowing someone who is a chemical engineer is that they can explain in detail what it is that is causing the symptoms of achiness. Apparently my spy cells, having sniffed out the enemy have sent chemical messages out to the first line of defense, the fagocytes (spelling on that might be wrong!). These cells find the bad cells (bacteria or virus) and encapsulate them in little sacs they create from their own cell membranes. Then they zap them with a lethal dose of hydrogen peroxide. In the meantime, the body is readying it's second line of defense, the antibodies. So, the achiness is a bi-product of the chemical messages and defense systems that are being activated in my body. Isn't that awesome!
No wonder I feel tired. My body is working hard. I'm going to go lay down now.