A date...

So one of the difficult pieces about being in this limbo period is that S and I are not having sex (not my doing, I tell thee). So I'm going to be a bit evil tonight. See, he's asked me on a date. This is a bit novel because during the time that he was my master, there was no asking. So we are going on a date, and I am planning to highlight the parts of me that I know that he is particularly attracted to. No one ever said I had to make him feel comfortable while we are in limbo. I look very cute in the outfit I've put together, if I may say so.

It's a bit fascinating to me, I must admit. This man is terribly enamored of my body. It's been incredibly good to my self-esteem. I'm a big woman who is mostly pear-shaped. I have an exagerated ass and hips - I'd add my thighs to the mix, but I think that given the size of my hips, they are completely proportionate. From the waist up, I'm about average (I wear a large on my upper body, generally).

My ass, in particular, is something that I have always been ashamed of. I grew up in Minnesota - a very white state - where people are not particularly appreciative of asses. When I moved to DC and Baltimore, I started getting attention from black men - I also found clothes that flattered me more. When I wear clothes for S that highlight my ass, he's particularly appreciative. It's been a wonderful gift because it's helped me make some peace with a part of myself that I've hated for so long.

How did I get off on that tangent?

Anyway...I'm going to be busy this weekend: tonight the date and tomorrow I'm going to a class with SS on Tantra for Polys. It's been awhile since I've seen her and it will be good to spend time together.

Have a wonderful weekend.