I'm not having a great week. I'm losing weight again. I'm nauseous again. I'm having more pain. I just don't feel good. And I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that they are going to find something on the 23rd. I'm afraid that they aren't (and that there aren't easy solutions to what I'm experiencing).
And the fear, of course, doesn't help. It's made being back at work that much harder and my anxiety level over smallish things is through the roof. I can't tell if it's the anxiety that's making me feel foggy all the time or if it's not feeling well.
I know that this is mostly just about learning to live in a place of uncertainty, but it really sucks.
I would like to register a complaint with the Powers that Be...I did really ask for this. I think that there should be fair warning. Can I sue for pain and suffering?
I've wanted to talk to S all week, but he's been involved in a conference in the City and I can't reach him.
Have I mentioned this sucks?