Thursday, September 22, 2005

"Summer has come and passed"

Happy Fall, everyone! Today is, I believe, officially the equinox. The day in which we should look forward to the changing leaves and the beauty of the fall. But we, here in the SF Bay Area, have not yet even had summer. It just feels strange.

So to get everyone in the mood for the fall, I offer a chant in praise of a Bay Area fall (by Carol Greywing):

"Soon the rains will come,
and the hills turn green,
and the creeks will sing,
and the nights grow long,
and Orion will rise."

I am, as usual, scattered as I write this. I am getting used to my practice, and I still have the "day job" which on Oct. 1 will be experiencing 2 major changes...a new clinic director, and a new company (we've been bought out and it will be official then). So I'm in between two stresses. I feel like I've begun to recover from the one and now I'm being hit with this second. I know I will ride it out, but I hate the feeling of being unable to concentrate and more than a little foggy.

I have a lot of exciting things to look forward to, obviously. I love the holidays which will be shortly upon us. I'm actually looking forward to see what kinds of positive changes might come from this new company. I just started earning more time off because I've been working at this job longer than any other I've ever worked for. I'm excited about the new practice. And, of course, there is The Trip.

But I'm saddened and anxious too...I've worked with my current clinic director since I started at my job and I'm sad to see her go. I'm not entirely sure that I will be able to make enough in my practice to cover expenses. I miss a blogger (Moose) who felt that he had to stop...and I don't think he's even visiting these days. I worry about the things that are always worries: am I worthy of my friends, will I be able to do what is required of me every day, etc. And, although I don't worry about this per se, I still chafe at being single/solitary in this world.

I guess that while there are new circumstances, much stays the same in Spinster's world, as I pass from season to season. I have cause to celebrate and cause to worry and be sad.

I do hope that whatever the Equinox brings you, that the celebration will balance out the sadness.

P.S. I've accepted a meme at Flash's...and this is what I'm supposed to post (apparently, it is written):

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of Jello to wrestle with you in (even though, Jello isn't veggie!).
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.


Flash said...

I'd like you to do me, Spins!
But I resolutely refuse to put it on my blog again.

the urban fox said...

I would volunteer as I'm sure your answers for everyone will be delightful, but my blog's a no-meme zone for the time being. Ah well. I suppose I'd better pass then, but I look forward to reading other people's.

Charby said...


Hyde said...

me too!

Fred said...

Just how did they get the name meme?

spinsterwitch said...

Flash - that's probably the most direct invitation, I've ever had from someone (!).

Fox - I'm actually not attached to having people post this on their I'll respond to you too.

Fred - I presume that Charby may have answered that before you asked it...but I'll check.

spinsterwitch said...

Fred - Wikipedia says a lot about meme...but this was the clearest part of it: "In casual use, the term meme often refers to any piece of information passed from one mind to another."

Moose said...

I'm still around. I just don't have very much to add to the universe. Today is the first day I've tried to "make the rounds." I hope everything comes out alright.

spinsterwitch said...

Good to see you about, Moose. Take your time, get your bearings.

Aravis said...

"Meme" means "same" in French, and it's a case of everyone answering the same set of questions. Perhaps that had something to do with it?

SwissToni said...

I'm not a big meme fan, but I'm with Fox - I like reading them, and I'm now feeling sort of left out. I'm going to do you Spin.

1. I think you are beautiful, spiritual and interesting.

2. It's got to be "My Doorbell" by the White Stripes, hasn't it?

3. blueberry

4. Squinting when you get out of bed and seeing a blurry world as you go the bathroom. Me too, tiger, me too..

5. When you first posted those pictures of yourself and opened yourself up to us all for the first time, and when you finally posted your 99 truths and one lie. Until then you had sort of kept your distance, and after that you really began to blossom and I loved you all the more for it.

6. A cat. Definitely a cat.

7. If you had the opportunity to sleep with someone today with no strings and no ties and no repercussions, would you take it? I think that maybe you wouldn't and that it should be about more than that, but I'd love to know if that's true.

No strings, I just wanted to do this for you.