Happy Fall, everyone! Today is, I believe, officially the equinox. The day in which we should look forward to the changing leaves and the beauty of the fall. But we, here in the SF Bay Area, have not yet even had summer. It just feels strange.
So to get everyone in the mood for the fall, I offer a chant in praise of a Bay Area fall (by Carol Greywing):
"Soon the rains will come,
and the hills turn green,
and the creeks will sing,
and the nights grow long,
and Orion will rise."
I am, as usual, scattered as I write this. I am getting used to my practice, and I still have the "day job" which on Oct. 1 will be experiencing 2 major changes...a new clinic director, and a new company (we've been bought out and it will be official then). So I'm in between two stresses. I feel like I've begun to recover from the one and now I'm being hit with this second. I know I will ride it out, but I hate the feeling of being unable to concentrate and more than a little foggy.
I have a lot of exciting things to look forward to, obviously. I love the holidays which will be shortly upon us. I'm actually looking forward to see what kinds of positive changes might come from this new company. I just started earning more time off because I've been working at this job longer than any other I've ever worked for. I'm excited about the new practice. And, of course, there is The Trip.
But I'm saddened and anxious too...I've worked with my current clinic director since I started at my job and I'm sad to see her go. I'm not entirely sure that I will be able to make enough in my practice to cover expenses. I miss a blogger (Moose) who felt that he had to stop...and I don't think he's even visiting these days. I worry about the things that are always worries: am I worthy of my friends, will I be able to do what is required of me every day, etc. And, although I don't worry about this per se, I still chafe at being single/solitary in this world.
I guess that while there are new circumstances, much stays the same in Spinster's world, as I pass from season to season. I have cause to celebrate and cause to worry and be sad.
I do hope that whatever the Equinox brings you, that the celebration will balance out the sadness.
P.S. I've accepted a meme at Flash's...and this is what I'm supposed to post (apparently, it is written):
Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of Jello to wrestle with you in (even though, Jello isn't veggie!).
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.