Another sign that the meds are working - I feel like making plans with people (beyond Hippy Chick and B). My friend, Bette, just arrived in SF and e-mailed me. The idea of seeing her is fun and exciting. It's been awhile since I've felt like that.
I have to say that for the first day or two of feeling this way, I felt a little "dead," as though there were no emotions and that wasn't good. But that's definitely not true. I still feel things, I'm just feeling them less intensely. I guess one could argue that this is not a good thing, but since the intensity was coming from sadness and anxiety, I have to say that I think it is good. Especially because it's letting me feel the better emotions.
Even today at work, talking about stressful things, I haven't felt overwhelmed or threatened. I'm feeling more focused.
All of these things are GOOD in light of the fact that I'm spending my weekend cleaning the old apartment - a daunting task.
I won't have access to the computer again until Monday (and will be spending my spare hours scrubbing anyway), so a message for the weekend:
Happy Birthday wishes to Flash (who may or may not get to see this...) and BeeDragon! May both your birthdays be filled with much joy and the coming year bring many blessings.