So, yes, my day did go okay today, but not before I made myself feel sick with anxiety. Luckily, I got to deal with the situation before I even walked in the door, so I spent the rest of the day calming myself.
I don't have much to say today. I will say that it seems like things are somewhat down in blogland these days. It feels a little like the midwinter blahs are settling in.
So what does Spins do when she has the blahs (and isn't so depressed she can't think)? She fantasizes...daydreams. Yes sometimes they are a little risque, but often I do strange things like fit myself into the story of a book that I'm reading or a television show I enjoy.
These fantasies aren't always terribly happy (I used to pretend that I was Guinevere when I was younger...oh the tragedy!), but in them I usually have more power or prestige than I perceive that I have now. Often I use these fantasies to help me fall asleep (because I can get as detailed as a Jean Auel novel in them when I set my mind to it).
I've done this for as long as I can remember. In fact, I can remember that such fantasizing helped me get through the torture of the Pythagorean theorem in a math class. The teacher thought I was taking notes, but I was really just playing out a fantasy on paper.
Does anybody else do this, or am I a bit of a freak (well, okay, I know I am - but answer anyway)?
So what about it...let's dispell the blog blahs, and share a bit of a collective fantasy. I'll start:
I'm on a beach. It's nighttime, warm and not much breeze, which is perfect for the bonfire that I have going. I've spent the day having a massage, some girly time with HippyChick and P'tit Loup getting a pedicure, eating good veggie food somewhere, taking a nap and reading a good book...now it's time to hang with the blogland crew. So I'm spreading out my beach blanket...I'm the first one here. Who else wants to join me?