I'm notoriously awful at waiting. I hate having feelings and not doing something about them. But we are "digesting" - taking time to let what we talked about sink in...thinking about what we each need. I've already asked for something, which was scary and hard. But I don't have a full plan about that yet.
Sounds lovely and vague, doesn't it?
Well, what I've been doing in all this isn't vague, though.
On Thursday, I made plans for today (I also made plans for my trip to NAAFA in July). I've had a mani/pedi. I'm going in a sec for a massage. Then I'm going out to eat, followed by going to see a play.
Tomorrow is less busy: CPR training, lunch with SS, then ????? I'll be filling in those question marks, you can bet the farm.
I've been feeling sick after I eat and a desire both to hide and to run away. But I am eating, and I am doing things that are very present (laundry, mostly). I took a nap both yesterday and today. That was good.
I called to wish him a blessed Passover. I really do hope that he is seeking out community tonight, but somehow I kinda doubt he will.
I hate this waiting.