Monday, April 21, 2008

What I need...

A big hello to Red One! It's been a long time since you've been around and it's good to have you back.

I need to start thinking about what I need. I think I'm at the end of avoiding as a way of coping and need to make my way up to more complex options. What's tipped the balance is that I was trying to avoid crying...but I'm crying anyway, so I might as well be productive at the same time. I don't know what this entails, but be forewarned, there may be horribly emo posts in the offing.

In the meantime, I'm also continuing to take care of myself. I had a good lunch with SS. I had a wonderful massage on Saturday. I rented movies, including some comedy to make me laugh.

I thought about taking time off work again today, but I need not to do that. Work actually helps. It reminds me that, in most of my life, I do have agency. That actually feels good. It's why I will continue to take the class that S & I are enrolled in (although I'm pretty sure he won't be going this week) and going to choir, etc.

Well, friends, I wish you a good Monday. I hope it is sunny and pretty where you is, at least that, here.

1 comment:

red one said...

Hi Spin


*goes all shy*

Actually, I am likely to remain an infrequent commenter. I've cut back on that kind of thing all round. Then I read a pile of your recent posts at once, and was really sorry to find you were having an unhappy time...

But just cos I'm not commenting these days doesn't mean I'm not reading, or thinking about you. Hope you're holding up OK.