A big hello to Red One! It's been a long time since you've been around and it's good to have you back.
I need to start thinking about what I need. I think I'm at the end of avoiding as a way of coping and need to make my way up to more complex options. What's tipped the balance is that I was trying to avoid crying...but I'm crying anyway, so I might as well be productive at the same time. I don't know what this entails, but be forewarned, there may be horribly emo posts in the offing.
In the meantime, I'm also continuing to take care of myself. I had a good lunch with SS. I had a wonderful massage on Saturday. I rented movies, including some comedy to make me laugh.
I thought about taking time off work again today, but I need not to do that. Work actually helps. It reminds me that, in most of my life, I do have agency. That actually feels good. It's why I will continue to take the class that S & I are enrolled in (although I'm pretty sure he won't be going this week) and going to choir, etc.
Well, friends, I wish you a good Monday. I hope it is sunny and pretty where you are...it is, at least that, here.