So I know that most of you will be saddened by this, but I canceled the ad and bid a fond adieu to those that I had be e-mailing. I did this in response to my response of S' response.
See I wasn't feeling justifiably angry or just annoyed. I was feeling bereft. S has not explained whether this is something he can tolerate, he says that he felt a sense of loss. He feels that I will find someone wonderful and not be drawn to be connected with him anymore.
This may be absolutely the case, or it may not be. But the idea of it was too much for me to tolerate. I am not ready.
I had an inkling of this when I first posted the ad. I felt great sadness. And it only increased as time continued to go by.
So there you are.
Tonight SS & I are going out to see a dance production by Big Moves. I'm happy about that and that I'm working slowly on getting my house a little tidier.